Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,

Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

                                                Robert Frost

City of Dreams

This city always cheers me up. It makes me feel loved and cherished and free and strong, strong enough to do anything. N it always gives me people I can fall back on or expect to lend me a shoulder during hard times. I love the other city too but this is the one I call my own.

P.S. Cuckoo bird, Garfield and Kumbhu baby, the other city is whichever one we can be together in

N you're gone

Someone’s stolen you away from me. I’ve lost ya forever and whether I like it or not, thats how things stand. I admit I wanted a change but that didn’t mean I’d give you away or let go, right?

For what its worth, they’ve been after me since ages to change ya. But that didn’t matter, did it? We were happy together. So what if I couldn’t hear you sometimes or your friends from the box had long left? N one can’t say you got lonely either, for I hardly ever let ya out of sight or earshot.

So, it could only mean one of two things. Either you wanted a change (which is just crazy!) or you decided to spread the happiness to someone else.

Either way, there’s only one thing that can be done – give in to their demands and get a new one!

Adieu my precious...

Stress busters

Talking helps
So does walking
Add to that smiling, laughing and flying
N you're back to how things were at the start... Childlike happiness.

When life stood still...

I wore a crown
Wasn’t afraid to drown
I flew alone
Feeling I could face a cyclone
One day I fell
Couldn’t even tell
Life stood still
I’d fallen ill
I lived alone
So weak, could have been blown
Cuckoo bird sang in my ear
Garfield bought me a pear
Kumbhu couldn’t come in
Blew kisses and said amen
Moon face sat besides me
Banana bringer sang a lullaby
Baby spring whispered at night
Its older version disappeared from sight
I felt loved and happy
Why does being well sometimes feel crappy?

All I want

All I want is to sleep after a hot bath on a full tummy

All I want is to soak in the sun while staring into empty space post lunch

All I want is to hear voices of loved ones

All I want is that rabbit remains at the store

All I want is to walk when I desire

I’m not thinking of flying just yet

P.S. I'm a liar. I want so much more but for starters this'll do :p

Pug? Birds? Naah..... Rabbit!

I’m innocent. All I wanted was a pug... to follow me everywhere once I was back, to look at me with its screwed up little face, innocent eyes... loving eyes. But people told me I couldn’t act so selfish. I couldn’t deprive it of potential company and love and care. So I was forced to act in consideration of a creature I hadn’t even set eyes upon.

Loved ones can sense your disappointment. I soon found myself flooded with suggestions. Cuckoo bird with with her term wise solutions, Garfield with his kitten, Kumbhu baby with his parrot in a cage, blue eyed sweetheart with love birds ;) then cuckoo bird with love birds without a cage :o spring 1 with ducks :o :o someone with piglets but then spring 2 has already got me one ;) spring 1 with tortoise (spring 1 come on!!!) blue eyed sweetheart’s sweetheart reminded me of PETA (thank you!), dramatic lotus with gunea pigs (ppl size does matter!!). Finally came the most far fetched suggestion.

Kumbhu baby: ‘how about a rabbit??? Soft to touch, pink upraised ears, it’ll hop around you, follow you everywhere, sit with you on a table with a carrot in hand and chew. It is also accustomed to living in a cage without much company. You’ll be all it needs, apart from carrots of course.’

It sounded ridiculous then n it sounds ridiculous now. But then you haven’t seen this rabbit I set eyes upon. It wasn’t a baby rabbit. It looked older, wiser. N when it looked at me, I thought I could take it home. I visited the store every day. I smiled, I laughed. It hopped around me nibbling on the carrots I took along. For those moments, I forgot we were at a pet store with people around. Potential buyers eyed us with envy. But we were in our own world. For those moments, I was happy.. ecstatic.. I was at home. When not there, I would invariably end up thinking I should perhaps get it.

You know how these decisions are. Kinda irrevocable. If you can act with consideration towards an unknown creature, how could you not think about one you’ d grown so attached to? Would I not change my mind in future? Did I really need it?Could I really need it?

Doubts vanished everytime I walked into the store and I decided to let it remain that way. Blissful it was, but unless I made up my mind, it was also transitory. Not that I didn’t realise so at the start. That day, as I walked in with the usual carrot in hand, I saw it nibbling on another carrot, someone else’s carrot.

Its not sold yet but there are other carrots in its cage now. Who brings these? I ask myself. I haven’t seen them. I don’t know what this means. I know what it might mean though. What I also know is that each time I walk into the store, it comes hopping towards me as if nothings changed. Perhaps it hasn't. For those moments I'm happy... ecstatic... at home again. Only that now I suddenly want it more than ever.. like crazy bad!

Or do I?

I’m innocent Kumbhu baby. You suggested I get a rabbit. Now i’m addicted to the notion..